Monday, September 8, 2008

a temporary goodbyez

salam aleykum wa rhmat Allahi wa barakatuhu,,,

ya Allah.. ya raheem, its Ramadan alhamdullelah, yet unfortunatly i havent made well of it yet. inshaAllah will do.
university started again.. am so freaked out, i havent felt like this since i was in like primary school, like my parrents were about to find out something horrible i did in school. am always super confident this is like weird for me.

my first 2 days of ramadan were a killer, since i usually eat 6 meals i was like too hungry to sleep, im am hungry i simply cant sleep so after fajr was tough to sleep, and at night am eating every 3 hours which is exactly 4 times, and i have to keep waking up in the middle of the night to eat i wake at 12 to eat and also at 3 for suhoor.

i havent been blogging for a while, been upset, "emotional issues" despite being no other involved, i dont like complaining so i just didnt blog since i wouldve been sending very negative vibes. anyways now i dont have time to have "emotional issues" I ve got SO MUCH WORK TO DO... its crazy. and i am getting worried about my thesis, i might have to travel for some research, see how that goes inshaAllah...

i joined a close gym within walking distance, for ramadan, i think i ll stick to it the entire year, i got no time! i have to work out, its like salat for me now, or i just become sluggish, i decided inshaAllah by decembre i want to be around 95kg now am 105.5 i lost 1.5 kg since ramdan started. so i got no time bu to diet work out and study.. i might give up the strict dieting if i feel its too much for me and affecting my studies. it would be easy going down to 100 or even 99/98 but lower than that becomes tough as there is much less fat to get rid of.

it will be inshaAllah nothing but studying, salat working out and eating+ sleeping. nothing else.

I will close this blog on firday inshaAllah, pleeeaaaaassse include me in your du3aas.

wa Allah al musta3aaan.

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Peronsality Stuff.


You Are a Colon



You are very orderly and fact driven.

You aren't concerned much with theories or dreams... only what's true or untrue.



You are brilliant and incredibly learned. Anything you know is well researched.

You like to make lists and sort through things step by step. You aren't subject to whim or emotions.



Your friends see you as a constant source of knowledge and advice.

(But they are a little sick of you being right all of the time!)


You excel in: Leadership positions



You get along best with: The Semi-Colon




Your Personality is Very Rare (INTP)



Your personality type is goofy, imaginative, relaxed, and brilliant.



Only about 4% of all people have your personality, including 2% of all women and 6% of all men

You are Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, and Perceiving.




You Are Very Honest



You tell it like it is, no matter what.

Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out.

And while some may get hurt by your honesty...

At least everyone knows where you stand!




You Are 86% Real


There's hardly a person on this earth more real than you are.

You have no problem showing people who you are, flaws and all.

For you, there couldn't be any other way. Because it's way too stressful to live an inauthentic life.

You're very comfortable with yourself. And because of this, you're able to live an exciting, interesting, and challenging life.




People Definitely Like You



You are very well liked, and many people admire you.

You are friendly, well mannered, and fun to be around.

Of course, you're not perfect... but that's okay.

Your friends are usually willing to accept you for who you are!



What People Don't Like About You:



People don't like that you are judgmental and overly opinionated. Even if you are always right, they don't like to be reminded of it!



What People Like About You:



People like that you give them complements. You make people feel good about themselves!



People like that you take responsibility for your actions and admit your mistakes. They appreciate your maturity.



People like that you are genuine and real. They can count on you to be yourself.







You Are a Little Prejudiced



You can't help but judge people a little based on your personal biases.

But you tend to be aware of your prejudices, and you fight them the best you can.

Most people are more like you than they'd care to admit... but it doesn't mean you shouldn't change.

Remember to take each person as an individual. It's not fair to judge someone based on their background or subculture.






You Are a Realist



You don't see the glass as half empty or half full. You see what's exactly in the glass.

You never try to make a bad situation seem better than it is...

But you also never sabotage any good things you have going on.

You are brutally honest in your assessments of situations - and this always seems to help you cope.






You Should Follow Islam



You believe that there is one true God and that it's your duty to submit to his will.

Life may be trying, unfair, or painful here on earth. But you're waiting for the Paradise in the afterlife.



Religion is the most important thing in your life, and you are fully devoted to God.

You are willing to fast, pray often, and follow all of God's rules to make sure you have a place in heaven.






You Are the King



You are natural leader. You like to rule, and people like to be ruled by you.

You handle responsibility well. You enjoy providing for those who are loyal to you.



You master anything you try, and you refuse to accept failure as an option.

You're especially good at developing strategies and delegating tasks.



You are a total perfectionist. Your standards are hard to live up to.

However, you are also very generous ... at least to those in your inner circle.






You Are Weightlifting



You love a true challenge, and you love taking up something with measurable results.

When most people would give up, you press on.

You can deal with pain and setbacks easily. You have a will of steel.






What Your Feet Say About You:



You are pretty average in your expressiveness. You can express yourself well, but you don't always want to.



You are a very passionate person. You are highly charged and easily inspired.



You are an assertive and aggressive person. You are determined and not likely to ever give up.



You fall in love easily and develop strong bonds. You are attached to many people.



You are not easily frightened, but you have a few strong phobias.



You are intellectual and philosophical. You are more concerned with thoughts than action.



You are very spoiled. You don't work unless you have to, and you love to be waited on.



You are easily influenced by other people. You're quite impressionable, so you should only be around people who are a good influence.






You Should Live in a Small City



You are definitely an urban person, but not any old city will do.

You want a city that matches you well. For you, big cities lack individuality.

You prefer a smaller city with lots of personality, local culture, and history.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

a Talk with a lil bitty keed in de geeym

Yah !

Alhamdullelah I love helping out folks in the gym giving them tips, adjusting the way their doing sets etc. Im more keen on folks more than their trainers that they get sometimes, who dont know shizzle or simply dont care.


This little kid came and stood beside me, as I was doing a set of cable rows, his EYES WIDE OPEN,, and saying "yanhar eswed" ( ya Black morning) sort of like OMG, and i am done as I wipe sweat of my forehead dripping a few over the bench, he s like show me your muscles,, so I laugh it off,, hes like show me your muscles .. so I bounce my pecs,, hes like waaaawww..lol ,, then hes like do like this (and he flexes his biceps) am like noooo,, bass.. he s like i what should i do here in the gym? .. am like how old are ya ? he said 12.. and i want to become tall and slim..am like drink milk and eat eggs lol.. hes like huh.. no nooo seriously.. am like yeah do that.. i do that too you know!.. hes like what do i do here ? am like nothing, go do swimming or football.. yr still young to bodybuild.. he wasnt satisfyied. i told him when r 16 come here and start.

then he feels my shoulder and says yanhar eswed again.. i tell him say mashaAllah! LOL,

which makes me wonder now.. why on earth a 12 year old wants to be tall and slim!?
when i was 12 what did I want ? I cant remember.

people usually think big guys are like nasty, when thats not the case, the biggest dude in our gym is like one of the kindest folks ever ! his arm is probably 22 inchs ,, thats like bigger than your thigh probably!

there were to girls 16 or 17 year olds makin fun of me as i was doing standing calf raises as i was growling. not to mention that the weight i had on was the heaviest the machine can sport. saying whats going on,, and teeeeeeeehehehe. I dont shout out like all of the gym can hear me but i i produce some scary noise on my heaviest sets, sort of like bruce Lee going WAAAAAAAKAAA and WOOOGGGGOOO, its to release energy, it helps!


moral of the post.. ?
BIG GUYS are not FREAKS and are NOT nasty, they are just like any other folks of which some are nasty and some are freaks.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Nothing Specific just a pre nap

yahhh alhamdullelah youngest bro is back,, i missed him i gave him a hug even though he was very sweaty..i remember i have this pic where i flex one arm biceps and he is sitting on the same shoulder of that arm he3!,, now mashaAllah he s a big boy wont be able to do that.

aaaand he came with amreeki quality brrrrooot6eeen. he said i got bigger he3 mashaAllah.
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on another notice most of the folks that come on this blog are (in order of most page hits)
1- in the U.S
2- U.K (or maybe zaytuna and mal were messing up my browser blogging from allover the U.K)
3-Canada
4-Saudi(apparently they come here for the globalization and deh muscle
5-Malaysia... huh ?
6-Kuwait-- maybe deh "liberalists" from a few years ago still hatin as i unintendly blocked blogspot in all of kuwait complaining about a specific blog to fast-teleco. some of these scumbags really need a to be slapped like a ****(teet), I pitty the fool.

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now i need one of those thick honda CBR 800cc bikes to be a bad boy, so i can show off infront of the islamic lectures where all the niqabi sisters go unfortunaly you cant fit 4 on a motorbike..and maybe the sheik will come running after me with a stick... yes kidding kidding.

you'd think these sisters in niqab are all hardcore and "strict" when in reality they are all fluffy hyper and squeaqy. being in the " deen scene" at 17 and always having friends way older than me and now being 23, I could tell you that a lot of things dont seem what they are like. and youd be surprised at how people change a lot !only the fortunate ones who are real, keep practicing and mainitaing the spirit of Islam.

and may Allah keep us firm.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Ayat from Surat An-Nisaa' (in order)

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا أَطِيعُوا اللَّهَ وَأَطِيعُوا الرَّسُولَ وَأُولِي الْأَمْرِ مِنْكُمْ فَإِنْ تَنَازَعْتُمْ فِي شَيْءٍ فَرُدُّوهُ إِلَى اللَّهِ وَالرَّسُولِ إِنْ كُنْتُمْ تُؤْمِنُونَ بِاللَّهِ وَالْيَوْمِ الْآخِرِ ذَلِكَ خَيْرٌ وَأَحْسَنُ تأويلا
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وَإِذَا قِيلَ لَهُمْ تَعَالَوْا إِلَى مَا أَنْزَلَ اللَّهُ وَإِلَى الرَّسُولِ رَأَيْتَ الْمُنَافِقِينَ يَصُدُّونَ عَنْكَ صُدُودًا
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وَمَا أَرْسَلْنَا مِنْ رَسُولٍ إِلَّا لِيُطَاعَ بِإِذْنِ اللَّهِ وَلَوْ أَنَّهُمْ إِذْ ظَلَمُوا أَنْفُسَهُمْ جَاءُوكَ فَاسْتَغْفَرُوا اللَّهَ وَاسْتَغْفَرَ لَهُمُ الرَّسُولُ لَوَجَدُوا اللَّهَ تَوَّابًا رَحِيمًا
فَلَا وَرَبِّكَ لَا يُؤْمِنُونَ حَتَّى يُحَكِّمُوكَ فِيمَا شَجَرَ بَيْنَهُمْ ثُمَّ لَا يَجِدُوا فِي أَنْفُسِهِمْ حَرَجًا مِمَّا قَضَيْتَ وَيُسَلِّمُوا تَسْلِيمًا
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مَنْ يُطِعِ الرَّسُولَ فَقَدْ أَطَاعَ اللَّهَ وَمَنْ تَوَلَّى فَمَا أَرْسَلْنَاكَ عَلَيْهِمْ حَفِيظًا
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وَمَنْ يُشَاقِقِ الرَّسُولَ مِنْ بَعْدِ مَا تَبَيَّنَ لَهُ الْهُدَى وَيَتَّبِعْ غَيْرَ سَبِيلِ الْمُؤْمِنِينَ نُوَلِّهِ مَا تَوَلَّى وَنُصْلِهِ جَهَنَّمَ وَسَاءَتْ مَصِيرًا
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يَا أَيُّهَا النَّاسُ قَدْ جَاءَكُمُ الرَّسُولُ بِالْحَقِّ مِنْ رَبِّكُمْ فَآمِنُوا خَيْرًا لَكُمْ وَإِنْ تَكْفُرُوا فَإِنَّ لِلَّهِ مَا فِي السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضِ وَكَانَ اللَّهُ عَلِيمًا حكيما

O ye who believe! obey Allah, and obey the Messenger, and those charged with authority among you. If ye differ in anything among yourselves, refer it to Allah and His Messenger, if ye do believe in Allah and the Last Day: that is best, and most suitable for final determination.
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When it is said to them: "Come to what Allah hath revealed, and to the Messenger": thou seest the Hypocrites avert their faces from thee in disgust
We sent not a Messenger, but to be obeyed, in accordance with the Will of Allah. If they had only, when they were unjust to themselves, come unto thee and asked Allah's forgiveness, and the Messenger had asked forgiveness for them, they would have found Allah indeed Oft-Returning, Most Merciful.
But no, by thy Lord, they can have no Faith, until they make thee judge in all disputes between them, and find in their souls no resistance against thy decisions, but accept them with full submission
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He who obeys the Messenger, obeys Allah; but if any turn away, We have not sent thee to watch over their (evil deeds).
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And Whoever contradicts and opposes the Messenger after the Right Path has been shown clearly to him and follows other than the believers' way. We shall keep him in the path he has chossen, and burn him in Hell - what an evil destination.
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O mankind! the Messenger hath come to you in truth from Allah: believe in him; it is best for you. But if ye rejected Faith, to Allah belong all things in the heavens and on earth: and Allah is All-Knowing, All-Wise

Friday, August 22, 2008

A lil Bit of Stuff

YuP.

I weighted my Self and I was Hovering Just a lil bit over 106kg thats about 233pounds MashaAllah! thats a pretty long way I have taken.... everyone in the gym tells me i got bigger. inshaAllah im gonna change the gym soon! alhamdullelah am starting to surpass my peers.

Ive actually gotten quite big that am not used to myself, and i dont feel compelled to eat when am hungry, but thats when am a bad boy I need to eat to keep it up!

Ramadan is coming up inshaAllah i slim down to 100 or so, but fat loss only inshaAllah !

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I really dont know what to say, all i think about is bodybuilding and politics. I shaved my head like SHAVED it and i look scary and intimidating and currently am sporting a big goatee not HUge but big, if you know me from my old blog i had a HUGE beard, but you know get issues with "THEM".

inshaAllah my parents will be coming after ramadan for eid. they see me like every few months or so which i get to pack on some pounds of muscle and ok FAT too!, last time my dad was pretty impressed and was all go for it and what not.

I am ordering inshaAllah Anthony Robert's Steroid guide. The Punked bookstore didnt reply yet to my order,, i guess i ll bug them for it again.

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This BodyBuilding Thing has helped me a lot overcome my emotional issues.
You really have to block it out and be cold about anything that bothers you otherwise you cant lift your max,, thats even if you feel you can drag yourself to the gym if you really upset.

I try not to talk about them here even though sometimes i do vent it out, you may think am all muscles and eat and politics and world order but deep down inside am just a soft tender guy.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Cold War Again ?

I was watching the news yesterday, getting all excited about a major shift in international affairs.

three significant developments occurred over the past few days

1- Poland and the U.S sign a military deal where the U.S is to place anti-missile shields (missiles) supposedly to protect Poland from any threat of long/medium range missiles, obviously this is directed at deterring Russia, or balancing it off but Condalica Rice (minister of International Relations) referred to it as protecting Poland from Iran( obviously Iran and Poland dont have any pressing issues of dispute).

2- More tensions arise between NATO (North Atlantic Treaty Organization) and Russia, NATO freezes all normal relations with Russia. Yup that’s more beef with Russia.

3- “President” of Syria Bashar al Asad goes to Moscow ! Denouncing the U.S’s back up to Georgia and its oppression to the world, he paves the way for military deals and co-operation including buying advanced aircraft fighters and allowing Russian Warships in Syrian ports in return of Russia dropping the money it is owed by Syria..


All of this was triggered over the situation in Georgia, where Russia felt its interest in the Caucuses was being undermined so it had to make the move to keep its strategic dominance over the area. Georgia of course is a U.S Ally now.

The U.S still feels or least treats Russia as if it was in the 90s when the U.S.S.R collapsed and Russia has become significantly weak stripping away its global power. Obviously Russia is way stronger now, (along with China and also India!).

The U.S since 9-11 has been occupied with this “War on Terror” a complete bogus term that doesn’t mean anything and has launched a war that among many things show bigotry and hatred towards Arabs and Muslims rather than being based on sound strategic judgment, it wasn’t so long till the U.S made use of 9 11 and launched a war on Iraq using its pretexts as a support. The U.S was serving Israeli interests in the Middle East over its own, ( as Mershimer and Waltz have pointed out before)

In the mean time Russia, China and India have significantly improved their economies, Of course Russia and then China are much more immanent threats to U.S Global dominance, I wrote a post before (Heading Towards a Mulit Polar World) like everyone else predicating the global situation, I never expected thought it would be that soon and blatant .

Its too early to decide how this will affect Muslim Countries with Military dictatorships suffocating their people, but I guess it gives more room for political opposition to act under the blind spot of America being concerned with more alerting issues.

Monday, August 18, 2008

Setting the New Pace

ahhh Yup Need to sit with myself see how bodybuilding is going, else I leave it unplanned and dont make the most of my years ahead inshaAllah.

My wrist is not 100% ok, but i can manage around it,, I think it might keep hurting a bit for a while like my left shoulder a bit more than a year ago... Ramadan is coming and am excited about taraweeh mostly.. Fasting itself is a killer for me since i eat like every 2 and a half/3 to 3 and a half hours. SO i get to really shrink in Ramadan,, last Ramadan was better than the one before.. I think LAst ramadan what triggered a mess up was having to visit some family friends and have iftar with them.. it was af it was taboo not going, and i didnt want to as there was a bit of mixing and all, I left early anyway.

of course if i dont eat properly on one day you cant make it up the other,, and in ramadan i eat in a very rigid strict manner of food choice,, I dont eat meat period on iftar only rice or pasta with chicken or fish.. meat can come later in the day and suhoor EGGS is a must... and I work out always after taraweeh.

From Info I learned about nutrition, Potassium is important for hydration, so in ramadan make sure you get plenty of it, milk is good for that and so as dates, so subhan Allah when its sunnah to break fast with things that speed up hydration.. faster than water alone. Bananas too have potassium, (eat with oats milk, cinnamon for suhoor along eggs for protein)

So...I will do the following training split.

Chest+ Biceps+ forearms,
Thighs+ Calfs + (Cardio + abs + Gluetts)
rest
Shoulders + triceps + Traps
rest
Back + Calfs + forearms + (Cardio + abs + Gluetts) (depending on how i feel i might skip cardio or do less time of it)
rest
start cycle again.

Warm up plus stretch and also more intensive stretching on rest days,, inshaAllah no less than 10 reps on the weights on my heaviest sets to give my joints a break.

need to add a few inches to my arms and calfs inshaAllah..

peace

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Nostalgic

ahhh mayyn, I just orderd some fast food, Hardees! Use to eat sometimes in Kuwait, Me and me Best Pal Mish after a wild jaming session of blasted amplifiers with heavy distortion from cool pedals and stuff running around headbanging with low strapped guitars we would order some food and watch tv lol...
some days it was fatayer others some junk food, sometimes pizza duuude awsome days.

that was like every wednesday , Id go to his place or he comes over, we eat and jammmmmm then go out "GIZZ" just look good and walk around, and occasionaly bump into some cute chickz, we d also go to this muscial shop "Wataniya" in Salmiya highstreet, and rock on the guitar there,, and get a crowd around us, and all the younger teens beg their parrents to buy em a guitar lol.. and the parrents say its coz we play good not coz the guitar is awsome :P.. I remember this Philipino dude who worked there William, he would be happy to show us tunes and cliffs but once we got really good (actually better than him) to the point of grapping attention away from him he gets pissed off and like claims the guitar is busted or the amplifier is I dunno what ... we also one day met some dudes who were like shocked that we didnt know them lol, some Bahraini brothers who who had a khaleeji band. me and mish thought they were a bit loose in the head.

me and mish would usually start off togther then we d meet other folks,, oh yeah Sheeha lol :S
Sheesha was a big thing among us, but me and mish later on stopped coz its bad for us. on one time we had this African American friend of ours who insisted on smoking it after it was done so he was just smoking the coal, and you know sterotyoing African Americans :P he was somking it as if it was weed with the facial jestures and all ..later on he tripped whle crossing the road and i had to grab before a car was about to run over him lol

I remember two girls (Divas) from school coming out of fanar, just around the corner we stopped and we talked for a bit and then they walked away with about 50 geezies stalking them and giving us looks of ackonwledgment.
Stalking is a big part of teen culture in kuwait.. iguess folsk grow up to do nastier stuff.. alhamdullelah i never went that far!..

I rememberrrr! the night of our first performance we were so anxsious and nervous, but with the first cords the girls were screaming the top of their lungs off everyone went crazy so did the parrents (it was winter concert and formal but we were the only rock band, and we had to sit down and wear formal! it was Master of Puppets by Metallica)) so being the only rock band we were pretty much the main event :P ohh yeahh it was sooo awsome me and mish were like flying after the concert was done girls started pouring at us telling us how we were amazing and stuff lol :P

I remember we went to a resturant and this dude our friend made us run after we payed and wrote the comments in this card thing abou the service... he was like I wrote **** **** on it (cussing his mother) we were like YOU IDIOT.. the punk forgot the DVD he bought there.. wo he sneaked inside and got it,, and this syrian chef dude ran after him lool..

I remember we d crack up to Dave Chappelle, Ali G and some of the nonsense clips you can downlaod on Kazza and Napster... we worked out the same gym for a while, we camped too,, I still have a rock with me from those camping days..

me and Mish havent met up in like 3 years,, inshAAllah we meet up in decembre :D. its like I can call him up anytime or mail him and its like we still crack up jokes.. we miss each other like we havent talked in ages.. but we dont behave like it

food is here.. alhamdullelah!
peace

More Arab Diplomatic Initiatives

As I have pointed out in a previous (post) its seems there are more initiavtes in the same direction, now there are talks between the Syrian and Lebanese president after a few years of diplomatic tensions. Also more recently the Jordanian Government holds talks with Hamas officials! After a cut off and heavy tensions for 9 years!

Keep in mind that this is for regional strategic reasons not coz King Husain suddenly had a “change of heart” in the Israeli coming elections and what it yeilds may mess up the situation in West Bank which would bring turmoil in Jordan. However this will also ease tentions with the Muslim Brotherhood of Jordan and the Islamist Social movment at large with th Jordanian government.

Anyway it seems interesting.. Jordan is trying to step up.. Now Egypt looks like a dork since they havent been able to bring all Palestinian factions and Israel to concrete deals.. Whatever Happens in Egypt in the next decade or is going to be a major propellant of what the Middle East will look like vis-à-vis Israel.

The U.S is too busy with Iraq that its “Allies” are more free to do what they want,, and more recently the Fiasco of Georgia is worrying them and dragging them into Cold War Politics.. Georgia ia a U.S Ally and currently Russian troops are only 40km away from Tbilisi the Georgia Capital..

International Affairs is getting Interesting !!

Saturday, August 16, 2008

What Am I ?

I have Wings that dont make me fly.
I have Guns that dont shoot bullets.
I have Wheels that arent that fast.

What Am I ?

Friday, August 15, 2008

Such a tiny person.

BAD ME, i kept awake for longer that I should, way longer.
So I decided to stay all the way till fajr,
So I decided I ll just check out some blogs
I ve been checking out so many of them
I saw such amazing people subhan Allah..
all I did was click on Islam in my profile
to see other folks who wrote Islam in their interests.

all what I thought is that Politics is really
what this world boils to, but I guess there is more to the world than politics.
I even found a le7ya bro with intrest in muscles like myself:P
I found a strong sister who is physically challanged, whom embraced buddhism then later on Islam.
That sister really touched my heart.
I found a blog of a 67 year old journalist with scitzophrenia
Another Blog by a Canadian Turkish Revert sister who makes bread.
ahh too man to mention.

am sleepy I should hit the sack. i worked out today (or yesterday) after about 3 weeks layoff. i rested my wrist coz it got busted. then on the day i was suppose to hit the weights i got as cold! i lost weight fat and muscle.. but am quite surprised i still barely have a good measurment of my arms, even though i havent pumped em out yet..alhamdullelah..

ahh daayyyuunnngg maaynn i have like a lil wee less than a year and a half to finish off masters inshaAllah.
then inshaAllah PHD if everythng goes smooth.. I wonder how will I get married in all this! not to mention keep my muscles growing !

all I can say.. Allah al musta3aaaan, and whom ever has tawakul on Allah He is sufficient for him.

Monday, August 11, 2008

New Arab Diplomacy and G.C.C Political Autonomy

I read this PAPER by Marina Ottaway, pretty interesting, it jotted down many of my thoughts which appeared to me like a pattern but I didn’t think much about its significance I certainly knew that the U.S is being isolated and lost a lot of its soft power in the region. The U.S can a no longer manipulate the current regimes to do whatever it demands. There is some autonomy however that minimal autonomy is never used against high profile American interests.

From some of the themes in the Article; Leadership in the Middle East is shifting east away from Egypt (and Syria) towards the G.C.C (Gulf Cooperating Council) namely more towards Saudi and Qatar and to a lesser extent U.A.E and Kuwait.

However all of the efforts of G.C.C policies and initiatives are not planned or institutionalized, they are largely the efforts of individuals of the ruling royal families. These efforts are mostly pragmatic and against U.S Hawkish hardline policies of demoralizing, alienating and isolating its adversaries in the region. Namely Iran, Hezbolla and Hamas. These adversaries however all have direct links with Arab regimes.

King Abdullah of Saudi has always tried on many occasions to have Hamas and PA/Fatah (Palestinian Authority) to Negotiate Also the Same has been done by Egypt, and Egypt has made several broked Deals between Israel and Hamas. Also King Abdullah like all the other Emirs met with Ahmedi Nejad and proclaim that Iran is their neighbor not an enemy, they basically did not give any official positive to America’s desire for a Strike on Iran.

Yet Egypt is only forced to deal with the situation because of its borders with Gaza., which were broken causing security issues in Egypt. Otherwise Egypt and Jordan are basically enslaved to American monetary aid and also Egypt more specially has isolated itself from the Regional arena and went inwards to address problems over succession in the presidency.

Qatar has Brokered a Deal between all the factions in Lebanon saving the country off a political catastrophe and what could have been as later showed a civil war. Despite the U.S putting a grim face towards the talks, Hezbolla representatives, were on the negotiating tables in Qatar. Hezbolla is obviously a winner in all this (not mentioned in the paper) but if one pays close attention to the new constitution Hezvollah could be interpreted as having the same credentials as the Lebanese Army where the “Muqawama“ (Resistance aka Hezbollah) and the Lebeanse army have the right to free Lebanon from occupiers (aka Israel) . And a victory for Hezbolla is also a victory for Iran. Not to mention the situation in Iraq I will address this issue later in another post inshaAllah..

All of these many issues among others, are marking somewhat an autonomy of regional policy of the major Arab Regime players and more specifically the G.C.C states. The G.C.C no longer relies on the U.S to buy its oil and now there are other buyers who are equally thirst for oil. Also the Policies of America are just incosiderate and simply contribute to anything but stability.

One Could also draw from Clement M. Henry and Robert Springborg’s Book “ Globalization and the Politics of Development in the Middle East” Which he classifies the G.C.C (and Morocco Which I don’t agree qualifies in their choice) as “Globalizing monarchies” and are the most likely to advance and respond to challenges of globalization in the Middle East.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Mass's Proposal Line

"My Sweet Little Cheese Cake, let me tell you a Secreat. I am planning to Revive the Caliphate and would like you to be my Caliphette."

New Sister in Islam

فَمَنْ يُرِدِ اللَّهُ أَنْ يَهدِيَهُ يَشْرَحْ صَدْرَهُ لِلْإِسْلَامِ وَمَنْ يُرِدْ أَنْ يُضِلَّهُ يَجْعَلْ صَدْرَهُ ضَيِّقًا حَرَجًا كَأَنَّمَا يَصَّعَّدُ فِي السَّمَاءِ كَذَلِكَ يَجْعَلُ اللَّهُ الرِّجْسَ عَلَى الَّذِينَ لَا يُؤْمِنُونَ
Those whom Allah (in His plan) willeth to guide, He openeth their breast to Islam; those whom He willeth to leave straying, He maketh their breast close and constricted, as if they had to climb up to the skies: thus doth Allah (heap) the penalty on those who refuse to believe.
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Subhan Allah, I saw her blog sometime ago and I just had this gutt feeling that she will take the deen, well alhamdullelah she did, I guess you should congratulate her and pray for her to be firm and well.
thats her here (=====>)

Friday, August 1, 2008

How To Give YourSelf an Injection

Salam aleykum
Ok inshaAllah you never have to but incase you do and yr pretty sick and like cant drag yourself to a hospital clinic or phramcy or whatever... OR yr doing steroids and you dont want folks to find out you been juicing up :P

not that I ever used steroids.. but i certianly am going to consider.. but i need to read more about it!

ok to give your self an injection aka. intramuscular in the buttox..

get an alchol tissue thing or swap if i recall correctly.... wipe the area you will stick the pin at..

that area... you divde your butt cheek into 4 parts (not with a knife of course, but in your head) as if you have drawing a cross over your butt cheeck that separates them equally.. now what you want is the outer upper corner

aka away from the butt line so any of the two outter corners thats your target.

its better tha you use a mirror in the process for maneuvering.

make sure that the injection does not have any air in it,, so when you fill it in you want to make sure there are no bubbles and that you have ejected some of the liquid out....

stick in the needle in the middle of the upper outter corner so if yr right handed use your right hand and on the upper right side of your right buttox. initially it will be a bit hard to penetrate. but then once its in its easy to stick the whole thing... or least if yr a bit chubby or have more muscles you might want to stick the whole thing in and inject slowly not to hurt yourself.. make sure it gets in the muscles!!!!!!!! not in the skin or fat tissue you dont want to mess yourself up,, its intra-muscular aka inside the muscle!!! but again you want to stay away from bones..

stick the pin out with fair quickness and then use the alcohol swap thing again,, and DO NOT rub! Only wipe the area not to bruise yourself, a tiny drop of blood may come out but thats ok.

vola! you have just injected yourself.
its better that someone does it for you
and then you learn off from them.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Ran Dom Lee

Yesterday was great ! alhamdullelahme, but also not so great for muscles

i havent had slept much something like 3 hours.. and my diet was absolutly horrible, i ate at more than 5 hour intervals,, i lose weight pretty fast and gain it pretty fast too. which is actually quite a good cobination for muscle building...I wasnt having enough water, and i ate some ice cream! when i was really hungry

I went out with some friends that i havent went out in ages with, some bros.. actually "cool " bros one of em pointed out that I had gottn wider :P which i was actually depumped.. the whole time.

despite being horribly depumped i still was relatively big.. and since i havent been going out for quite a long time.. i felt some what HUGE compared to other people. and every once in a while i would notice some stares... in the gym however i dont really feel big as there are many bigger folks.. the good thing abou being big is that people get out of the way for ya :P

even though i dontwalk around with my lats flexed and chest pushed out :P

I dont go out for that purpose, mostly handling the food with "normal" folks who are not bodybuilding oriented... i just get hungry every three hourse and i need quality food. I lost quite some muscle from yesterday ... and i havent been going full throtle my wrist hurts!

I just started taking some joint supplements
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we prayed at nice masajid.. maghrib and esha.. were pretty good.
there was a mini lecture about isra and miraajj,, and one of my friends told asked me after we left the masjid..

Do you know who is the first one to go from Mecca to al Qudss and back on the same day (or night I forget )
I said the prophet Sallah Allahu 3alayhi wa sallam.. he said yeah i mean after him...?
Me: dunno
Him: Bin Laden, Owsamas father..
he apparently did it before 1967 just to be the first one after the prophet Sallah Allahu 3alayhi wa sallam to do it.. an apparently his company (Bin Landen its called) cleans the masjid al harram and takes care of it all year round for 1 riyal.

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duude food is gettin expensive.. am so consious of it since i know exactly what i eat... its so horrible Allah al musta3an.

better go sleep again!
sal,am

Monday, July 28, 2008

Wallahi am Upset,,, terrorism..

After all these blasts in India killing and injuring many people.
now in Turkey..

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/7527977.stm

this is sickining :(

Allah al musta3an.

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Bizarre But True; Hijabis Join the Force

Check This Out …. (its pretty short) Muslim PoliceWomen in London can now wear hijab as part of their uniform.

I never really thought much about it, till I read the police in hijab thing, women arent really suppose to be cops anyway. Imagine women cops in Kuwait or in Dubai, the Shabab (youth) would probably just go speeding right in front of their patrol car just to get a ticket from the policewomen. Or perhaps make themselves get chased to get “Arrested” ...
Or in Cairo ? Maybe a mother in law policewoman like figure from Egyptian black and white movies would be freaking out all deh wrongdoers from doing wrong..(sarcasm)

Maybe it works in the west, It certainly would never work out here in the Arab World. Even in fairly recent years I’ve seen Law enforcement women in the Kuwaiti airport that seemed like they were more so of models.

So what exactly are those two sisters going to do when some bum snatches the handbag of a nice old lady, run after him each with a hand holding their hijab and another lifting up their abaya ??
furthermore bros could go check out the cute police sisters deliberately steal something off the street when close to them so they get chased and arrested, then tell em all about their plan, get their pop’s number and convince her later to join the housewife force?

Some sisters/folks are just so quick to put anything in "hijab" in positive light, we have now “hijabi” swimmers, Olympic runners, mountain climbers and other athletes, maybe in the future God Forbid we’ll have hijabi bodybuilders hitting the back double biceps and side chest pose ?
hijabi this hijabi that hijabi models, hijabi fashion. blah blah blah..

Unfortunately Hijab these days has been watered down to something it is not.


The prophet salla Allahu 3alayhi wa salam said;
لتتبعن سنن من كان قبلكم شبراً بشبر وذراعاً بذراع حتى لو سلكوا جحر ضب لسلكتموه" قلنا يا رسول الله اليهود "
والنصارى قال "فمن" ؟
"You will follow the ways of those before you arm by arm and hand-span by hand-span, even if so they entre the hole of a lizard you join them"They said (the Companions) the Jews and Christians? the Prophet PBUH said "then who?"

(Bukhari and Muslim)

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

It was already 6:50 am I should’ve woken up 5:45, that’s what you get when you speak with a talkative friend over the phone. Some people simply like to go on and on. I don’t like being mean to others so I listen to what the have to say. I couldn’t eat my oatmeal and eggs for that reason. So I had to gulp down a protein-carbohydrate mix. I took my meals I pack every three days or so for work, along with my gym bag. I also took a cup of coffee sweetened with honey so that am more alert.

I arrive at the gym later than usual, I check in and its much more crowded. Filled with people who want to socialize instead of actually working out as well as occasional early comers who get boosts of enthusiasm twice a month or so. Well I don’t have time for the chit chat with ladies nor that it interests me.

Vishal comes by and says “You’re Late Bruva” with his thick cockney accent, “You’re getting big” he added. I say “Hey you’re getting back in shape yourself”. Vishal is a truck driver apparently he got laid off for two months for some quarrel he had with his boss, he was having a tough time with cash flow, he wasn’t eating enough and surely it reduced the size of his physique. He plans to be a certified personal trainer soon and quit his baffling job with unfixed time shifts.

I did my warming up and head to the free weights section, Its chest and biceps day, and as I was late I only had time to do chest training. So off I went “hitting the weights” as they say repetition after repetition set after set.

I was almost done, I had two more sets of “Dumbell flyes” to go. That blonde tall woman approached me, “ would you spot me please” she asked. I nodded to her request and walked off behind her to the flat bench press. Its not the first time she asks me. Apparently the bigger you are the more people feel its secure that you are the one to spot them. Well I am not that big but certainly at 248 pounds you seem big to the average person.

She asks me to help her on the 6th repetition as she growls loud trying to push the bar making everyone in the gym look at us. I slightly help her with the seventh repetition and during the 8th I am doing a lot of “spotting” the ninth repetition is actually me doing most of it. She screams “One More!” as I try to make her do most of the pushing I drip a few sweat drops over her face and one catching her eyes.

She screams loudly as she jumps off the bench after I place the barbell back in its place. I was a bit embarrassed sweating over her. “Im really sorry” I mumbled in a shy tone, She laughs and says” don’t worry, it smells nice” and laughs more as I raise my eyebrow thinking what on earth is she thinking. I walk off to finish my 2 sets after her telling me thank you and me replying “any time”.

I manage to make it on time at work. I love my job, well my internship, it could get annoying at times but I still love it. Charles comes closer towards me as I’am sitting on my desk “ don’t tell me its sardines for today” he shouted in his loud thick Nigerian accent. “Yes Charles its sardines today and its gonna smell bad”.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

My New Workout Jorunal


AAARRGHHH


I messed up my sleep and when you mess up yr sleep you feel so slugish to go and pump the hell out of your brains.


So I decided to blog about it as am surfing news,, inshaAllah i ll go to the gym in a while..


I decided i ll take a mini notebook with me to write the weights and reps and rate the pump after each work out he3! as geeky and nerdy as it sounds but this way i can improve better inshaAllah so i can keep adding reps or weight, i only keep track of my major motions like bench press and deadlift. keeping journals is what some pros have done.


Today I got shoulders+ traps and triceps inshaAllah..


Off I go.


maybe inshaAllah one day I ll be bigger than that dude!

a bit late I could have been, I was eating..I washed my hands and put on my clothes, I didnt eat much carbs so I decided it would be ok to have some fruit.

I grabbed 2 figs and munched one, and was about to take the next one with me as I opened the door to leave, but a thought rushed through, I always brush my teeth before leaving off to anywhere.

Looking at half of the remianing fig between my fingers, rich in its colour, so sweet and juciy; I sighed since its taste in my mouth was about to go all away after I brush my teeth.

I thought to myself; Subhan Allah,
what is it in this world of any desire that lasts long anyway.

Friday, July 18, 2008

One often meets his destiny on the road he takes to avoid it.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Learning about Bodybuilding and the "Dog-Crap" Method.

Well “Dog-Crap” is a bit popular. But perhaps in the States. Here in the Arab world hardly anyone knows about anything well least from my encounters in gyms in Kuwait and Egypt.
I remember when I first went to a gym.. I think I was 15.. I use to work out everyday!!! For the first 2 weeks I worked out twice a day everyday except on Fridays.. I was so messed up, my muscles were all sore and cramped that my biceps would bend my arms.. That in order to straighten my arms I would tie plastic bags around my arms with a stick in-between! I later started going once a day except Fridays coz it was too much.

I remember that was about the time where I all of a sudden grew a lot over the summer and with working out I got all huge.. That was between 10th and 11th grade. I got taller than almost all the kids that were taller than me.. Well apart from the fact that I didn’t know anything from working out its still helped a bit.

I would then go in the summer. For a month or 2. I never knew that you had to eat ! To grow muscles.. Not much emphasis was given there.. Neither I knew that you had to rest.. Since if you overwork yourself which I was almost all the time.. It is counterproductive to muscle growth. Only many years later about 2 years ago I started reading about it.. it’s a whole new world..
I was defiantly wasting my time working out on whims and silly instructions by coaches whom never studied what they are telling you . Now I have to cut corners through bad shoulders from working out with bad techniques and I could have been much stronger and bigger now if only I new what I was doing back then..

Going back to Dog-Crap method.. Which includes improving through making slight improvements each workout you go through.. By either increasing your reps (even one rep is enough) or slightly increasing the weight you use.. This way you are constantly improving.

The smaller your goals, the bigger/more improved person you are (depending upon your goals)

He3,, I think I should one day open my own gym,, and employ folks whom actually know what they are doing.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

The Fiasco over Omar Al-Bashir, President of Sudan + Jamaat-e-Islami Responds with Protests.

Prosecutors in The International Criminal Court(ICC) wants to issue a warrant to arrest the President of Sudan.. Some sort of joke.. they want to charge him with genocide and crimes against humanity..

Well I have personally met with people from Darfur.. I dont really know what to believe.. different people say different things.. but a theme that keeps coming about is that the issue of racial difference between Arabs and Africans is not really the source of the conflict at all..
it seems though that the government has been seriously mad about the way they deal with things.. From other cases not necessarily Darfur.

Apparently Darfur, use to be where Egyptians got most of there Gold…so it had a lot of gold, ivory and was fertile climate.. Well now it has a lot of Oil, and Uranium too..

Other than that Sudan is one of those countries that stand in the face of the west…
So ICC just happened to forget about Bush and Bliar.. Leading an illegal warfare by the ICC standards.. Not to mention Guantanamo bay and abu ghraib.. No one was issues a warrant against yet even convicted of anything….

Obviously they just setting the ground for any future possibility of invading Sudan… perhaps since Iran seems like a far fetched goal..
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Whats cool however is Jamaat-e-Islami of Pakistan carried out protests in Lahore chanting ant--American slogans and advocating Jihad against America. They are usually the first to protest for the pains of Muslimeen anywhere around the world.. I googled news on it to give you folks a link.. But didn’t find any it was on aljazeera though..

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Kiss me..... out of the bearded barley....
Nightly.... beside the green, green grass
Swing.. swing..... swing the spinning step

Oh...... kiss me....... beneath the milky twilight,
Lead me....... out on the moonlit floor.
Lift your open hand,
Strike up the band and make the fire flies dance,
Silver moon's sparkling, so kiss me...................................................

Saturday, July 12, 2008

يَمُنُّونَ عَلَيْكَ أَنْ أَسْلَمُوا قُلْ لَا تَمُنُّوا عَلَيَّ إِسْلَامَكُمْ بَلِ اللَّهُ يَمُنُّ عَلَيْكُمْ أَنْ هَدَاكُمْ لِلْإِيمَانِ إِنْ كُنْتُمْ صَادِقِينَ
إِنَّ اللَّهَ يَعْلَمُ غَيْبَ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضِ وَاللَّهُ بَصِيرٌ بِمَا تَعْمَلُونَ
They impress on thee as a favour that they have embraced Islam. Say, "Count not your Islam as a favour upon me: nay, Allah has conferred a favour upon you that He has guided you to the Faith, if ye be true and sincere.

"Verily Allah Knows the secrets of the heavens and the earth: and Allah sees well all that ye do."
[49;17-18]

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Strategic Vacuum, G.C.C needs to invest in Military

The Arab Gulf countries obviously have a lot of oil,, and ehm
American Bases.. The whole World is interested in Oil there but obviously the U.S has its bases there, and wont Allow Russia or China any control over that oil.

The U.S is never going to leave Iraq.. yess it will reduce its forces there but only to deploy them else where, Obama can say all he want The U.S never actually left any country it built bases in.. thats since second world war, there are still bases in Germany and South Korea. In fact the U.S has over 700 bases all over the world...

The U.S is power is starting to decline, yet still its Hard Power (Military) is unmatched.
The Gulf and pretty much all the Islamic World have been handed over from one power to another since the fall of The Ottoman Calphate. French, Brits, Other Europeans, Russians and lately the U.S and we will keep on being handed over to other rising regional powers till we are strong enough to stand on our own...

What we see with Iran is essentially the U.S wanting to contain it and especially to reduce its rising influence over the Arabian Gulf and its extending arm to the its western region..

The point is when the Gulf is so rich and with whooping oil prices and plenty of extra cash... maybe folks like in Dubai ought to invest in firearms and start producing their own weapons instead of doing a lot of crazy buildings, its good for the economy sure but can be blown away real quick in potenial futre conflicts

There needs to be a transition from that declining U.S power in the region instead of leaving it to potenial rivals the the GUlf needs to stand for itself..

the question is...
why the G.C.C doesnt invest in Firearms and Military equipment???

.. its good for the economy and the future inshaAllah!.. am not talking about buying the stuff from the U.S or U.K with high prices and reduced options am talking about producing your own stuff!!!
Hadith Qudsi

On the authority of Anas, may Allah be pleased with him, who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah, peace be upon him, say: Allah the Almighty said: O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with sins nearly as great as the earth and were you then to face Me, ascribing no partner to Me, I would bring you forgiveness as close to it in measure.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

OH MASS!

OH MASS
WHAT BIG THIGHS YOU HAVE...

yes honey.. the heavier to squat..

OH MASSSSS....
WHAT BIG CHEST YOU HAVE..

yes honey.. the heavier to bench press..

OH MASS WHAT BIG ...
LOL i compltly lost it..alhamdullelah wa mashaAllah wa Allahu Akbbar to day i had the best PUMP in my biceps i had ever.. wallahy my skin was like so tight around my arams it was amazing and all the veins duuuudeeee!!!

I even alhamdullelah lifed more weights! for the first time i was curling 25kg dumbles dude!!! i was like stuck on barely 20 for a while.. the average dudes in the gym only go 15kg max..

I would love to talk about something i forgot i was about to talk abotu but i reaaaallly have to go !

salam.. later..

Monday, July 7, 2008

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Feminism,Counter Culture, health and looking good

I was watching Aljazeera, then I decided let me check out the Religious channels, And I came through Iqra, There were a bunch of hyper women in their mid/early thirties others a bit older in a Salon.

I was about to switch the utter shameless disgrace and tabaruj they attribute to Islam. But then, just a few words listening to them, I realized they were talking about health and weight etc…Interesting.. ?

Most of them married and were talking about how its good to look nice for hubby and what not and another older and obviously more full woman was saying NO!.. you don’t have to look great, we are being sold (by the west) that we ought to be satisfied by what we look…the culture of being satisfied by our bodies… ( as if we endorse the culture of being satisfied with not being satisfied with out bodies) we cant hormones make us like that ( FAT)…… she starves her self to diet….

WHAT UTTER DONKEY PLOP!!! Making excuses to be FAT and out of UTTER IGNORANCE !.. She got me pissed !

And then this other woman bragging about how she was always from 60 to 62 kg and when she exceeds she fixes her meals and doesn’t eat Dinner !

THEY JUST DON’T GET IT…

If you don’t eat you lose muscle too.. And yeah who said Muscles aren’t important ? They are they boost your metabolism which in return makes you burn more fat.. If you don’t eat your body simply goes into starvation mode and uses up every calorie as efficiently as possible and starts burning muscle as it slows your metabolism down and thus burn less fat in the process…am not talking about Arnold muscle am talking about descent size muscle not ping pong shoulder muscles covered with a 6 inch fat loaf.

Eating is not the problem.. Its eating the right stuff in the right quantities in the right time and you HAVE to exercise other wise yr wasting your time.. That older woman said.. They diet and then they become fat again.. And keep doing that.. Its hormones.. that’s coz they starve themselves then they give up and eat it all back again…. Exercising boosts your metabolism and allows you to eat since you burn it faster.. So you can enjoy what you eat from now to then even fatty stuff and just calorie loaded foods..

And why do they have to relate it to gratifying Hubby’s needs! As if its like bad to look nice and the big bellied perv that married me demands that I look good incase his wolverine eyes sway and look for other meat.
Not that I personally favor the model-ish sister over a more plump one.. But being healthy is a good thing and that means not having too much fat and having some muscle and working out, watching what you eat…
For those who want to get started I always say bodybuilding.com is great has a lot of info.. Often the basic principles of bodybuilding can be used to look like whatever you want.

Check this out its just on the front page of today
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Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Where everyone go ?

salam aleykum

I dunno why I feel that since i stop blogging a lot of other people stop doing that too.. or maybe we have some sort of patern in psychological vibes or woteva.

alhamdullelah finally been sleeping very early and waking very early.
it seems like the day is so much longer and has more baraka.

im growing alhamdullelah in an insane manner!... my jeans are getting too tight! which is the bad part!.. and am also now too fattish .. got some blubber neet to rid of.. my watch which i havent been wearing for some time coz i was lazy to go change the batery is now not loose like before!

i realised that i now need to eat even more than before!.. i cant really handle any more food per meal so am eating now more often.. havent been counting which is why am gaing fat.

other than that
keeping my self busy.
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Ramadan is in two months inshaAllah ! isnt that insane!
time marches on subhan Allah.

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Oil Prices are going up real high!
and for the first time i feel like obama might actually win..

oh well g2g
salam.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Ideological Disfiguration

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا إِنْ تُطِيعُوا الَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا يَرُدُّوكُمْ عَلَى أَعْقَابِكُمْ فَتَنْقَلِبُوا خاسرين
O ye who believe! if ye obey the Unbelievers, they will drive you back on your heels, and ye will turn back (from Faith) to your own loss.[ Al-Imran 149]



يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا إِنْ تُطِيعُوا فَرِيقًا مِنَ الَّذِينَ أُوتُوا الْكِتَابَ يَرُدُّوكُمْ بَعْدَ إِيمَانِكُمْ كافرين
O ye who believe! if ye listen to a faction among the People of the Book, they would (indeed) render you apostates after ye have believed! [Al-Imran 100]


I was reading Surat Al-Imran, and I came across the ayah 149 and some one came to my mind. Not that am calling that person outside the fold of Islam in my mind, but surely is very close to it. It was so clear to me, that I felt it on a whole new different level. You see all those “academics” and activists giving in to notions of disbelief, secularism, certain aspects about “Human rights” and “Women rights” etc. They keep bashing you with these concepts and making your beliefs taboo, that some of us give up to them in certain points, till gradually we almost become identical to them. (Interesting this bro has to say)

وَأَنِ احْكُمْ بَيْنَهُمْ بِمَا أَنْزَلَ اللَّهُ وَلَا تَتَّبِعْ أَهْوَاءَهُمْ وَاحْذَرْهُمْ أَنْ يَفْتِنُوكَ عَنْ بَعْضِ مَا أَنْزَلَ اللَّهُ إِلَيْكَ

And this (He commands): judge thou between them by what Allah hath revealed, and follow not their vain desires, but beware of them lest they turn you far away from some of that which Allah has sent down to you. [Al-Maidah 49]

Allah asks us to be ware that they turn us from “some” of our Sharia.. which is what they do they keep getting to you bit by bit till you are almost skinned from your Islam, thus after ayah 149 in Al-Imran Allah tells us

بَلِ اللَّهُ مَوْلَاكُمْ وَهُوَ خَيْرُ النَّاصِرِينَ
Nay, Allah is your protector, and He is the best of helpers.

That is we should faith in Allah, and depend on him in our matters, and not give up to the unbelievers’ demands in how to conduct our affairs and life.
We should stick to our guns, with compassion and invite them to Allah rather than allowing them to turn us away from Allah.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Wobbly Legs, and Politics

ahh
my legs are are so sore i can barely walk up stairs my legs are like mashaAllah oak sized! I did some squating insane legs pressing and leg extensions.. bad news is my right shoulder is inflammated yeah my right.. if you been reading my old blog it was previously my left shoulder!
alhamdullelah left is ok now.. i guess i go see the doctor inshaAllah soon! hate injuries!

I weighed myself 2 days ago and now am 101 kg! 222pounds ( Say MashaAllah!) i dont look fat at all although i could cut back on some. im too sick of dieting ( no suger period or only after work outs) though, and doing cardio. i just want to take it easy eat and pump lol. I could probably go down to 91 shredded. losing weight is easy thing for me, just keeping the muscle is the though bit.
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I havent written anything serious in ages.. i mostly burn out my thoughts in conemplation and doing further readings. and other stuff. i sometims wonder if this political academic career is what i should do.. its too stressful!

oh well await my next post inshaAllah, should be something worth reading!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The Politics of Cyber Marriage

Ahh, for a while I wanted to write a post on hawa/desire, a religious post, but since not many read my blog like before I just figured id do some other 3ebada on my own..
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Well ! Back to my post of intent, haa.. I just got a proposal from a convert sister.. I kindly said no she was way older and had children, I was flattered either way that some one much older than me would be interested.. It really breaks my heart that many of these sisters get a divorced for various reasons I wont discuss here.

Well you see that’s on the cyber profile thing, on the several Muslim matchmaking websites.. For a guy like me whom I really doubt will have a “traditional marriage” even though I would have loved to avoid all the complications of living a “globalized delocalized” life style and intellectual cultural dilemmas I have.

I know that there were sisters interested in me in university, but im not anything near a serious prospect, girls from our uni are “high maintenance” and there is a huge emphasis on the material world, not my thing. And for a guy like myself with academic ambitions that’s like killing my zawaj prospects.

Am not Egyptian enough. For a typical Egyptian marriage, my previous perception of my self is that I was like interesting/exotic but nothing serious. When I first started out on deen in my second semster of uni people thought I was Pakistani !with my white head fit hat thing, ( 6ageyah) then of course I had friends that thought I was born and raised in America, and others that thought I was Kuwaiti even after knowing me for 2 years. Like guys I use to go out with and chill!

Not that any of the sisters in uni were interesting to me anyways!. I remember the daunting task of some bros looking for a wife and then some of em would tell me to call bro so and so who is already married coz his wife is a friend of so and so.. Blahblah blahhh.. And for some reason the bros were always helpful when they could before they were married.. Once they are.. Its like they so freaking lazy.. And never get back to you…

Seems like I never got to “cyber marriage “ yet he3!
I only had one cyber encounter that lasted about 2 weeks! And one phone call.. She was a sister from a bodybuilding forum lol! Like converted at the time for a few months and started niqab. We just weren’t made for each other.. Another one, way before with another convert sis, which I didn’t know she was, she approached me, blah blah we fell in love blah, she never really practiced , blah we stopped talking. And the only perhaps most close to a traditional setting was visiting a family, well the girl was Mexican american she converted at 16 then her mom converted after her !, I went to their house her step dad opened the door and behind him a woman whom I thought was the girl,, I was like shocked!!!! And like I freaked out my mouth slightly opened and my eyes in awe, then he said this is my wife and I was like fewwwww wiping the sweat over my forehead.. I said kindly no again.. Which like made me sad for a week.
Well so it seems not so of a bad idea to try this cyber world thing on…

You see going through profiles, like some sisters just don’t get it.. Not serious at all on ther profiles and say the stupidest things one could possibly say.. And it also seems that as sisters grow older their demands go less and less..

I would have liked to quote some of what the sisters were saying, that would be nasty perhaps.. But one said “no bros with jacked up minhaj” JACKED UP MINHAJ !!

And whats up with the sisters who want to live in Saudi ? “make hijra to Saudi” as if that’s possible ! They think Saudi is some sort of manhaj moral Utopia especially the troid spubs “super Salafi” sisters if you know what I mean.

There are tones of older sisters.. Perhaps the younger ones shouldn’t wait till they get old and start putting profiles!!! I cant find any!
I sort of got lost why I wrote this post, but perhaps I could get some feedback !

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Pumping Iron!

puuumping up.. pumpinnnnnng iron
pumping up, it reaaaallly feeels like flaaaaayiiiinnn
commmming up,,,,,just laaaaike a laaaaion

pummmppppping Irrrroooonnnnn,

working out nowwwwwwww
pumping out noowwwwww

every body wants to be rememeberrrrrreeeeeeeed
every bodddy wants to have a frieeeennnd

gonna be ready and able
if the friends wanna turn the table


pumping irrronn

now bodddy is gonna be bigggeerrr than Iiiiii

Pumpit up nowwwww
work it up nowwww
pumping ouuuuut

every body wants to be respected
everybody wants to be biiig

everybbbaadddy wanna live forever
everybaaady wanna be a herooooo
everybodddy wants to be in heaaaaveeennn

pump it up now
pump it up nowwwww
pump it up nooowwwwwww
COME ON EVERYBODDDYYYY PUMP IT UP NOOOWWWWWWWW!



Alhamdullelah !
I feel so high on the pump! like am on drugs!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Hunting the Misses.

salam aleykum,

perhaps I can get some advice from the sisters, since for a while hardly any bros been poping up here..

So...

say..
There is this sister in my uni.. she is sitting down under a tree (on a chair) reading a book. She seems interesting.. and she doesnt seem like from around.. ya3ni not a local (Egyptian)..

well if there was a girl in the past that was so interesting (like back when i was 17) i would just go up to her and have a chat.. well i dont think i have done that with someone i wasnt aquianted to or at least saw somewhere........ WELL.. now i cant do that...

how do I approach such a sister since am interested.. like I dont talk to females generally and if i did its only class mates and doesnt exceed like.. a minute or 2... So if I approach any girl it looks weird anyway.. and if she looks like a "sister" like she could freak out if i just say yo am looking for a wife mind if i talk to you ? ( i mean of course in a nicer more eloquent way)

I mean i have the courage to such a thing.. am not worried about actually doing it.. but how do i best maximize chances of making her interested...

Dont tell me ask a bro who has a sister or married.. coz no.. they just too lazy and it never happens...

or do I just sit and have a chat with her... and maybe she will get it ?

suggestions?

Monday, June 9, 2008

Healthy healthy healthy

Just came back from the gym

had two packets of ramen noodles and two cans of tuna... I was basically chocking on the tuna..

today was thighs day,,, and partially gluets.. even though its been quite some time since i last worked out legs i still managed to pile more weights... 80kg leg extensions..alhamdullelah wa mashaAllah!
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with food prices going up, for a guy like me who keeps track of food prices since i eat a lot and i need to like economise..

egss are way more expensive.. it matters coz i eat about 9 to 12 a day in one meal ( i throw away some of the yolk)
meat is been going up steadily.
milk is a hell lot more expensive,

oh well bodybuilding is an expensive sport !. everyone whom i met who takes it seriously says so too..

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its pretty cool when you see some bros regularly at the gym...
coz many are either fat or skinny..
some people believe that its ok to sleep 4 hours and eat very little as if thats zuhd..

people who do that usually get easily sick and dont live long...their backs start hunching and they start looking as if they are aging real quick.

and i think its talbees from shaytan.. you think you are being tested while it is only you that brought yourself in such an unhealthy miserable state..

working out keeps you healthy fresh and energetic and i would think keeps your marriage life new as well.

your body has a right upon you so give it that right.. am not saying go to the gym 4 times a week and eat 5/6 meals a day... just eat well healthy and excercise..
عن عبيد بن عمير رضي الله عنه
أنه قال : لعائشة رضي الله عنهاأخبرينا بأعجب شيء رأيته من رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم
قال : فسكتت ثم قالت : لما كان ليلة من الليالي
قال : يا عائشة ذريني أتعبد الليلة لربي
قلت : والله إني أحب قربك وأحب ما يسرك
قالت : فقام فتطهر ثم قام يصلي
قالت : فلم يزل يبكي حتى بل حجره
قالت : وكان جالسا فلم يزل يبكي صلى الله عليه وسلم حتى بل لحيته
قالت : ثم بكى حتى بل الأرض
فجاء بلال يؤذنه بالصلاة فلما رآه يبكي
قال : يا رسول الله تبكي وقد غفر الله لك ما تقدم من ذنبكوما تأخر
قال: أفلا أكون عبدا شكورا لقد نزلت علي الليلة آية ويل لمن قرأها ولم يتفكر فيها
إِنَّ فِي خَلْقِ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضِ وَاخْتِلَافِ اللَّيْلِ وَالنَّهَارِ لَآَيَاتٍ لِأُولِي الْأَلْبَاب
الَّذِينَ يَذْكُرُونَ اللَّهَ قِيَامًا وَقُعُودًا وَعَلَى جُنُوبِهِمْ وَيَتَفَكَّرُونَ فِي خَلْقِ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضِ رَبَّنَا مَا خَلَقْتَ هَذَا بَاطِلًا سُبْحَانَكَ فَقِنَا عَذَابَ النَّارِ
(Bukhari)

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Ramblings

I is got a mini headache and am reeally tierd of a long day..
and am waiting for my room to get cold so i can sleeeeep

Kristen all of a sudden disapeared... Kristen ??
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I never had any sisters,, and i have 2 bros.. I wonder what would be like if i had a sister.. i never wanted one when i was a teen.. coz i went to the kind of schools where girls get hit on.. and being the Arabified Arab gulfified sa3eedi... if i had a sister and you look at her id like beat the living shizzle out of you.

and like the last thing you wanna do is always keeping an eye on your sister and getting beat up by bigger boys.. then id have to like put a pipe in my bag or something..

I remember in 10th grade when I told my parrents about going to the school prom, my mum was like if you had a sister would you let her go.. i was like Hell NO!... she was like then we shouldnt let you go.. i was like no am a guy its ok.. she s like but its not fair she doesnt go.. I was like whatever.. she was like i would let her go.. i said i wouldnt.. she: but I said i would.. me: I dont care what you say she wont go thats it period by force.. LOL..

I remember i had a friend his sister wore hijab and never talked to guys.. he never had to worry about her.. he3 but i never thought about it back then.. well actually i was like she would HAVE TO wear all black... i dunno where do i get all this from.. maybe fitra... a lot of my school friends are totally brain fried in ideology somehow a lot of the egyptians and pakistanis have retained their Islam.. many of the kuwaitis are just out of the galaxy.

I was wondering whats it like.. to live with another woman... then you would have to take care of everyhting in the house and not leave anything broke... and it has to be all tidy all the time ? or maybe she was living a bachelors life??

and you can no longer cook for the sake of food content.. taste too ?? well maybe i wont have to cook anyways.. but its not fair she makes me food like 5/6 times a day.. i dont think she would even have to cook me anything.. oh well...

I was going to write something serious today but things came up... please pray for me.

what makes me endure so much is the state our Ummah is in.. sometimes i think i would not be into the deen if it werent for that... alhamdullelah i was created in such a time.. where am more likely to be into the deen i guess.... I remember once i was realllly sick and like telling myself this is too much id rather die.. then i was like hell no i got stuff to do before i die.....

may Allah make use of me for this Ummah...
astaghfur Allah wa 2atoob 2ilayh

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Mind Blowing MASSive pump

More Dream

Yup I had another dream, and I was having a political debate !

and i was taking about democracy and Shariah,, and about cultural idenitiy.
and I was talking to the Son of the Pharoah, not pharoah him self... in the past i ve had a dream where i talked to his wife.where i was very assertive. and as i mentioned before i beat him up in another dream back in 11th grade.. or was it 12th ? before I even had any idea about politics, Islam etc

whats cool,, is i woke after the dream remembering exactly what i said in the debate !

Im either seriously crazy..
Or am either going to do something insane
OR maybe something mind blowing Great.

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been taking a break from news.. seems much more relaxing!

am going to start reading about steroids soon.. do as much reading as I can..
enough baby play.

Friday, May 30, 2008

No Pain, No Muscle Gain

waaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

finally alhamdullelah, I am DONE wiz za fRReakin paapaarrzz,, want to paatay yaa?

I just came back few hours ago from the GYM.. the worked out sucked so much,, i didnt feel the pumptensial, cant blame myself been off the gym for quite some time, but good alhamdullelah to feel the blood rush..

i was bouncing my pecs to the beat.. just for fun. in Cairo seems a lot of the guys into techno, which is a load of rubbish most of the time, not that i listen to it..

i can move one at a time, and move them completly independant from each other..

I need like 2 weeks to be back to normal and perhaps inshaAllah another week to be pushing my limits with comfort..

I guess being on a mushy heart is also bad for lifting just as its bad for anything, like good ole rocky or bruce lee. and also it makes you lose your appateite so you cant even eat...
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I think i should watch some naruto...
and hajime no ippo.

and i hate to say this.. but i reaaallly miss my guitar.
I think inshaAllah i ll do that in janah. blaaaah.

rabi ighfir lee war7amni.
wa2anta 2ar7amu ara7imeeen.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

وَمَنْ يَتَّقِ اللَّهَ يَجْعَلْ لَهُ مَخْرَجًا
وَيَرْزُقْهُ مِنْ حَيْثُ لَا يَحْتَسِبُ
وَمَنْ يَتَوَكَّلْ عَلَى اللَّهِ فَهُوَ حَسْبُهُ
إِنَّ اللَّهَ بَالِغُ أَمْرِهِ
قَدْ جَعَلَ اللَّهُ لِكُلِّ شَيْءٍ قَدْرًا
And for those who fear Allah, He (ever) prepares a way out,
And He provides for him from (sources) he never could imagine.
And if anyone puts his trust in Allah, sufficient is (Allah) for him.
For Allah will surely accomplish His purpose:
verily, for all things has Allah appointed a due proportion.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Our Days ahead to come..

DONE with a paper and a presentation alhamdullelah

I sooo,, kicked behind.


I was so confident and spoke like i owned the world alhamdullelah !
questions came up on me like punches and kicks only to be blocked as bones were broken.


think of a circle and a Wu Shu master in the middle with novice trying to get him :P
well not really.. most of the folks liked my paper. even though it was pretty assertive.

I was soo happy alhamdullelah!

even better !

After i went off to the library i saw a girl from summer 2006, we took a course together..
she was like.. eah dah ezayak!! MASS YOU CHANGED!.. i was like.. how ?
she s like well you... and then with her hands gestured that i got wider he3he3!
and said you became bigger..

SO im like.. yeah i went to the gym.. and flexed my biceps with a mini most muscular pose :S.. LOL. that sort of came natural lol.. and i havent slept much so make me excused :P

well back then i was like 76 kg maybe ???.. now am like 96ish maybe,, i need to check.. thats 20kg more he3 ..alhamdullelah..

Saturday, May 24, 2008

MULTI POLAR WORLD

The U.S is gonna probably really suffer economically.. and if MacCain wins and continues cowaboy policies then its probably over.... thats why it was probably smart for him to say war would be "won" by 2013... well the war is a big LOSS and it is probably going to be a huge jump for Iran if the U.S does pull out... but either ways under the radar of western media... Al Maleki Iraq prime minister signed an agreement which allows the U.S to basically stay in Iraq for as much as it wants.......

if Obama wins.. then maybe we ll see "some shifts" i dont expect anything drastic.. still the power relations in america are intact and the democrats and republicans not very different... well thats an opinion.. and the other seem to think.. NO.. there will be major shifts...

the U.S is going through a classical recession.. I am not much of an economic expert.. but i dont think it will kick back anytime soon....Oil prices are going to whoop up too.. so its even tougher..
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New Russian President (whatever his name is) just passed by China to meet the president there Hu Gun Tau ?... they condemed the U.S Missle sheild system and made some military agreements and Gas pipline deals and Oil too if am not mistaken

this pack is is basically the end of U.S Global hegemony....

with the economic suffering of U.S China will suffer too which gives Russia more room to grow.. however China is not going to let Russia grow too uch

basically what Russia and China are doing is objecting to the U.S world view and telling them to stay out of our back yard that is central Asia.... also to shape dealings with Iran and Kosovo.

India as made clear by its officials are not going to be played off by the U.S into going against China or Russia.. and also India is not going to comprimise any of the regional powers...

this is essentially India's reply to the American running candiate's advisors regarding "the democracy packt" which aims to divide the regional superpowers and maintain U.S hegemony.
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Its interesting how things will be in the Middle East with all this in mind.. it is still early for china or russia to influence anything.. but definatly for now will give more leverage to Iran..

I think "Political Islam" is going to surge very strongly Turkey is also heading in an Islamic direction.... and smartly
they are cutting business deals with Israel. they also doing smaller things (but many of them) like banning smoking in public areas..
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everyday things happen and the pace of political change is intense..
cant wait for more.............

bye bye USA.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Am Hungry

I just orderd a burger and a hawt Dawg.. last time i had french fries.... ohhh i was about to brag but i just had it like a few months ago when i was off working out but before that maybe a a year ?.. i dunno i just stopped eating French (or freedom) fries they absolutly bad for you!

the guys whom come from the bigger chain resturants usually never say "salam aleykum"
they say "masaa2 el khair" which i DONT LIKE.. am pretty SURE they are instructed to say anything but "salam aleykum"
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I havent eaten a burger since that french fries day.. and i dont think i ll eat one in another 6 months or so... i think inshaAllah sooooon i ll use the testosterone booster which long has awaited as well as creatine,, i used creatine before good stuff.. but inshaAllah the hormonal blast would be of use..
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PRICE OF AN OIL barrel hit today 135$!!!
its suggested to reach 200$ by the end of this year,, the world is going on fire...
and good ole saudi is raising production...

Good for lebanon they reached an agreement
Pakistan makes truce with "pakistan Talibn" and govt forces pull out from pustun areas
Turkey hooking up israel with syria
major strikes in morocco
public transport strikes in france.

and more importantly Mass is still very hungry..
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When was the last time you opened the Quran?

وَإِذْ أَخَذْنَا مِيثَاقَكُمْ وَرَفَعْنَا فَوْقَكُمُ الطُّورَ خُذُوا مَا آتَيْنَاكُمْ بِقُوَّةٍ وَاذْكُرُوا مَا فِيهِ لَعَلَّكُمْ تَتَّقُونَ
ثُمَّ تَوَلَّيْتُمْ مِنْ بَعْدِ ذَلِكَ فَلَوْلَا فَضْلُ اللَّهِ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَتُهُ لَكُنْتُمْ مِنَ الْخَاسِرِينَ

And remember We took your Covenant and We raised above you (the towering height) of Mount (Sinai) (saying): "Hold firmly to what We have given you and bring (ever) to remembrance what is therein: perchance ye may fear Allah."
But ye turned back thereafter: had it not been for the Grace and Mercy of Allah to you, ye had surely been among the lost.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

aaaaarrrgGhhhhhhh

ALHAMDULLELAH am almost done with a paper i just have to write the conclusion and fix the footnotes !!! my brains is sooo fried

am so frieeed.. i cant think no more..... and still i have another paper... ARRGHH BRING IT ON..

Allah al musta3an!

aaaand i havent worked out for a while now! i look more like an underwearmodel than a big bad MuscleHead.

inshaAllah i shall start doing that again soon..

Time.

prophet Muhammad Sallah Allahu 3alayhi wa sallam said;
لا تزول قدما عبد يوم القيامة حتى يسأل عن عمره فيما أفناه وعن علمه فيم فعل وعن ماله من أين اكتسبه وفيم أنفقه وعن جسمه فيم أبلاه
(tirmithi said its saheeh)
That Allah will ask about;
1-your life in what you have finished it?
2-your knowledge, what have you used it for ?
3- your money what you have spent it in ? and how you optained it
4- your body, in what effort you have used it?


what caught my attention in this hadeeth is the your life ? some people live and die with no purpose at all, in fact they live like what Allah said about the kuffar

وَالَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا يَتَمَتَّعُونَ وَيَأْكُلُونَ كَمَا تَأْكُلُ الْأَنْعَامُ وَالنَّارُ مَثْوًى لَهُمْ

those who reject Allah will enjoy (this world) and eat as cattle eat; and the Fire will be their abode.

dont live a life of food sleep and messing about.....

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Taking over the World and weird dreams

So remember the letus i mentioned in the post not before this one, but the one before that!. it wasnt washed !!!! and its EEEgept so thats like baaad.
im guessing thats why i got sick and threw up and nasty stuff.. but i guess its better than having my bros suffer..I got to eat the dirty shizzle first..

alhamdullelah..

I remember aaages ago before I was into the deen before i had any political consious, before i reeeally cared about anything really.. I had this dreeeam and it felt good...

I was in watania mall (the one in kuwait) and beating shnooge out of ... well.. an Arab Bresident.. yes he s still alive unfortunatly and seems in good health.. I was judo flipping him on the floor and kicking him ,, and shouting at him.. I cant realy tell if its a ru2ya but i dont think it was..

in Watania Mall I use to go and play counterstrike that network first person shooting game,, I was known as Slayer, and I use to kick behind.. my favorite gun was the AK lol... and i always dominated the killer list thing with my friend ( the guy who asked me for ayat from the Quran, May Allah guide him)
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i ve been having some weird funny dreams, I even had a dream about me going to a resturant where they had fried chicken and brock Lee (however you spell it ) spinish pie.. there was also this chubby woman and was almost seducing me,, for some reason.. well i didnt get to eat anything coz it was junk food and it was so high in calorie and low in macro nutrients lol am even on nutrition mode in my dreams.. somehow before all that there were security forces marching on the street to gather around a protest weird eh ?

,, up to a few years back i had everynow and then some dreams well ru2yas.. like hardcore pure ruyas that were no doubt from Allah pertaining this sister i fell in love with.. it was so tragic back then it was awful.. well ve been taking a bit lately ehm ehm.. and i dont feel consumed by those depressive feelings.. am so laxed out i think she s just going to give into the deeen..

Allah al musta3aaaan.

Friday, May 16, 2008

My Bleeding Heart

yaah
still sore still a bit sluggish,

yesterday was reading news, and I came to see that California has legalised "homosexual civil unions" gay marriage ya3ni.. feeling a bit sick already from my tummy discomfort i almost threw up when i saw the pic of two old women french kissing each other.... weaa333

I remember ages ago when morality just seemed black and white, it was so comforting. its just wrong coz its wrong.. but then you grow up or perhaps get exposed to other "views" and everything seems so chaotic and discusting.. so I thought to myself and some how comfered myself that our FITRA is all the same...
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in a class on political islam, and i decided i will never take a class on political islam no more, coz simply i have stopped learning anything from such classes...no one knows rat poop. the level of discusstion is so simplistic and low i dont feel like im in a graduate class..
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I was thinking how the Ummah has never suffered like this before, and many of our brothers and sisters including myself feel like its almost the end of the world and the great battles before the day of judgment are about to take place.... well the thing is we arent the first people to think this or feel that way and many hunreds of years ago Muslimeen also felt like this... this sort of apocalyptic tendancy is self distructive and prone to failure as we build for a short period of time and expect something to happen to end all our suffering,,

perhaps we need to learn more about the signs of time ending, and even then we should not allow it to conflict with our judgment of dunya affairs... I feel much more could be done if a lot of the sincere bros and sisters get out of this mentaility of being a victim persecuted by the evil powerful forces of kuffr.

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of the pains I endure, the state of our Ummah just stabs me in the heart several times a day.. and before I sleep i somehow feel optimistic... and I just pray that I do something significat for this ummah and that I see a major positive change before I die.