Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Ideological Disfiguration

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا إِنْ تُطِيعُوا الَّذِينَ كَفَرُوا يَرُدُّوكُمْ عَلَى أَعْقَابِكُمْ فَتَنْقَلِبُوا خاسرين
O ye who believe! if ye obey the Unbelievers, they will drive you back on your heels, and ye will turn back (from Faith) to your own loss.[ Al-Imran 149]

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا إِنْ تُطِيعُوا فَرِيقًا مِنَ الَّذِينَ أُوتُوا الْكِتَابَ يَرُدُّوكُمْ بَعْدَ إِيمَانِكُمْ كافرين
O ye who believe! if ye listen to a faction among the People of the Book, they would (indeed) render you apostates after ye have believed! [Al-Imran 100]

I was reading Surat Al-Imran, and I came across the ayah 149 and some one came to my mind. Not that am calling that person outside the fold of Islam in my mind, but surely is very close to it. It was so clear to me, that I felt it on a whole new different level. You see all those “academics” and activists giving in to notions of disbelief, secularism, certain aspects about “Human rights” and “Women rights” etc. They keep bashing you with these concepts and making your beliefs taboo, that some of us give up to them in certain points, till gradually we almost become identical to them. (Interesting this bro has to say)

وَأَنِ احْكُمْ بَيْنَهُمْ بِمَا أَنْزَلَ اللَّهُ وَلَا تَتَّبِعْ أَهْوَاءَهُمْ وَاحْذَرْهُمْ أَنْ يَفْتِنُوكَ عَنْ بَعْضِ مَا أَنْزَلَ اللَّهُ إِلَيْكَ

And this (He commands): judge thou between them by what Allah hath revealed, and follow not their vain desires, but beware of them lest they turn you far away from some of that which Allah has sent down to you. [Al-Maidah 49]

Allah asks us to be ware that they turn us from “some” of our Sharia.. which is what they do they keep getting to you bit by bit till you are almost skinned from your Islam, thus after ayah 149 in Al-Imran Allah tells us

بَلِ اللَّهُ مَوْلَاكُمْ وَهُوَ خَيْرُ النَّاصِرِينَ
Nay, Allah is your protector, and He is the best of helpers.

That is we should faith in Allah, and depend on him in our matters, and not give up to the unbelievers’ demands in how to conduct our affairs and life.
We should stick to our guns, with compassion and invite them to Allah rather than allowing them to turn us away from Allah.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Wobbly Legs, and Politics

my legs are are so sore i can barely walk up stairs my legs are like mashaAllah oak sized! I did some squating insane legs pressing and leg extensions.. bad news is my right shoulder is inflammated yeah my right.. if you been reading my old blog it was previously my left shoulder!
alhamdullelah left is ok now.. i guess i go see the doctor inshaAllah soon! hate injuries!

I weighed myself 2 days ago and now am 101 kg! 222pounds ( Say MashaAllah!) i dont look fat at all although i could cut back on some. im too sick of dieting ( no suger period or only after work outs) though, and doing cardio. i just want to take it easy eat and pump lol. I could probably go down to 91 shredded. losing weight is easy thing for me, just keeping the muscle is the though bit.

I havent written anything serious in ages.. i mostly burn out my thoughts in conemplation and doing further readings. and other stuff. i sometims wonder if this political academic career is what i should do.. its too stressful!

oh well await my next post inshaAllah, should be something worth reading!

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

The Politics of Cyber Marriage

Ahh, for a while I wanted to write a post on hawa/desire, a religious post, but since not many read my blog like before I just figured id do some other 3ebada on my own..

Well ! Back to my post of intent, haa.. I just got a proposal from a convert sister.. I kindly said no she was way older and had children, I was flattered either way that some one much older than me would be interested.. It really breaks my heart that many of these sisters get a divorced for various reasons I wont discuss here.

Well you see that’s on the cyber profile thing, on the several Muslim matchmaking websites.. For a guy like me whom I really doubt will have a “traditional marriage” even though I would have loved to avoid all the complications of living a “globalized delocalized” life style and intellectual cultural dilemmas I have.

I know that there were sisters interested in me in university, but im not anything near a serious prospect, girls from our uni are “high maintenance” and there is a huge emphasis on the material world, not my thing. And for a guy like myself with academic ambitions that’s like killing my zawaj prospects.

Am not Egyptian enough. For a typical Egyptian marriage, my previous perception of my self is that I was like interesting/exotic but nothing serious. When I first started out on deen in my second semster of uni people thought I was Pakistani !with my white head fit hat thing, ( 6ageyah) then of course I had friends that thought I was born and raised in America, and others that thought I was Kuwaiti even after knowing me for 2 years. Like guys I use to go out with and chill!

Not that any of the sisters in uni were interesting to me anyways!. I remember the daunting task of some bros looking for a wife and then some of em would tell me to call bro so and so who is already married coz his wife is a friend of so and so.. Blahblah blahhh.. And for some reason the bros were always helpful when they could before they were married.. Once they are.. Its like they so freaking lazy.. And never get back to you…

Seems like I never got to “cyber marriage “ yet he3!
I only had one cyber encounter that lasted about 2 weeks! And one phone call.. She was a sister from a bodybuilding forum lol! Like converted at the time for a few months and started niqab. We just weren’t made for each other.. Another one, way before with another convert sis, which I didn’t know she was, she approached me, blah blah we fell in love blah, she never really practiced , blah we stopped talking. And the only perhaps most close to a traditional setting was visiting a family, well the girl was Mexican american she converted at 16 then her mom converted after her !, I went to their house her step dad opened the door and behind him a woman whom I thought was the girl,, I was like shocked!!!! And like I freaked out my mouth slightly opened and my eyes in awe, then he said this is my wife and I was like fewwwww wiping the sweat over my forehead.. I said kindly no again.. Which like made me sad for a week.
Well so it seems not so of a bad idea to try this cyber world thing on…

You see going through profiles, like some sisters just don’t get it.. Not serious at all on ther profiles and say the stupidest things one could possibly say.. And it also seems that as sisters grow older their demands go less and less..

I would have liked to quote some of what the sisters were saying, that would be nasty perhaps.. But one said “no bros with jacked up minhaj” JACKED UP MINHAJ !!

And whats up with the sisters who want to live in Saudi ? “make hijra to Saudi” as if that’s possible ! They think Saudi is some sort of manhaj moral Utopia especially the troid spubs “super Salafi” sisters if you know what I mean.

There are tones of older sisters.. Perhaps the younger ones shouldn’t wait till they get old and start putting profiles!!! I cant find any!
I sort of got lost why I wrote this post, but perhaps I could get some feedback !

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Pumping Iron!

puuumping up.. pumpinnnnnng iron
pumping up, it reaaaallly feeels like flaaaaayiiiinnn
commmming up,,,,,just laaaaike a laaaaion

pummmppppping Irrrroooonnnnn,

working out nowwwwwwww
pumping out noowwwwww

every body wants to be rememeberrrrrreeeeeeeed
every bodddy wants to have a frieeeennnd

gonna be ready and able
if the friends wanna turn the table

pumping irrronn

now bodddy is gonna be bigggeerrr than Iiiiii

Pumpit up nowwwww
work it up nowwww
pumping ouuuuut

every body wants to be respected
everybody wants to be biiig

everybbbaadddy wanna live forever
everybaaady wanna be a herooooo
everybodddy wants to be in heaaaaveeennn

pump it up now
pump it up nowwwww
pump it up nooowwwwwww

Alhamdullelah !
I feel so high on the pump! like am on drugs!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Hunting the Misses.

salam aleykum,

perhaps I can get some advice from the sisters, since for a while hardly any bros been poping up here..


There is this sister in my uni.. she is sitting down under a tree (on a chair) reading a book. She seems interesting.. and she doesnt seem like from around.. ya3ni not a local (Egyptian)..

well if there was a girl in the past that was so interesting (like back when i was 17) i would just go up to her and have a chat.. well i dont think i have done that with someone i wasnt aquianted to or at least saw somewhere........ WELL.. now i cant do that...

how do I approach such a sister since am interested.. like I dont talk to females generally and if i did its only class mates and doesnt exceed like.. a minute or 2... So if I approach any girl it looks weird anyway.. and if she looks like a "sister" like she could freak out if i just say yo am looking for a wife mind if i talk to you ? ( i mean of course in a nicer more eloquent way)

I mean i have the courage to such a thing.. am not worried about actually doing it.. but how do i best maximize chances of making her interested...

Dont tell me ask a bro who has a sister or married.. coz no.. they just too lazy and it never happens...

or do I just sit and have a chat with her... and maybe she will get it ?


Monday, June 9, 2008

Healthy healthy healthy

Just came back from the gym

had two packets of ramen noodles and two cans of tuna... I was basically chocking on the tuna..

today was thighs day,,, and partially gluets.. even though its been quite some time since i last worked out legs i still managed to pile more weights... 80kg leg extensions..alhamdullelah wa mashaAllah!

with food prices going up, for a guy like me who keeps track of food prices since i eat a lot and i need to like economise..

egss are way more expensive.. it matters coz i eat about 9 to 12 a day in one meal ( i throw away some of the yolk)
meat is been going up steadily.
milk is a hell lot more expensive,

oh well bodybuilding is an expensive sport !. everyone whom i met who takes it seriously says so too..


its pretty cool when you see some bros regularly at the gym...
coz many are either fat or skinny..
some people believe that its ok to sleep 4 hours and eat very little as if thats zuhd..

people who do that usually get easily sick and dont live long...their backs start hunching and they start looking as if they are aging real quick.

and i think its talbees from shaytan.. you think you are being tested while it is only you that brought yourself in such an unhealthy miserable state..

working out keeps you healthy fresh and energetic and i would think keeps your marriage life new as well.

your body has a right upon you so give it that right.. am not saying go to the gym 4 times a week and eat 5/6 meals a day... just eat well healthy and excercise..
عن عبيد بن عمير رضي الله عنه
أنه قال : لعائشة رضي الله عنهاأخبرينا بأعجب شيء رأيته من رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم
قال : فسكتت ثم قالت : لما كان ليلة من الليالي
قال : يا عائشة ذريني أتعبد الليلة لربي
قلت : والله إني أحب قربك وأحب ما يسرك
قالت : فقام فتطهر ثم قام يصلي
قالت : فلم يزل يبكي حتى بل حجره
قالت : وكان جالسا فلم يزل يبكي صلى الله عليه وسلم حتى بل لحيته
قالت : ثم بكى حتى بل الأرض
فجاء بلال يؤذنه بالصلاة فلما رآه يبكي
قال : يا رسول الله تبكي وقد غفر الله لك ما تقدم من ذنبكوما تأخر
قال: أفلا أكون عبدا شكورا لقد نزلت علي الليلة آية ويل لمن قرأها ولم يتفكر فيها
إِنَّ فِي خَلْقِ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضِ وَاخْتِلَافِ اللَّيْلِ وَالنَّهَارِ لَآَيَاتٍ لِأُولِي الْأَلْبَاب
الَّذِينَ يَذْكُرُونَ اللَّهَ قِيَامًا وَقُعُودًا وَعَلَى جُنُوبِهِمْ وَيَتَفَكَّرُونَ فِي خَلْقِ السَّمَاوَاتِ وَالْأَرْضِ رَبَّنَا مَا خَلَقْتَ هَذَا بَاطِلًا سُبْحَانَكَ فَقِنَا عَذَابَ النَّارِ

Wednesday, June 4, 2008


I is got a mini headache and am reeally tierd of a long day..
and am waiting for my room to get cold so i can sleeeeep

Kristen all of a sudden disapeared... Kristen ??

I never had any sisters,, and i have 2 bros.. I wonder what would be like if i had a sister.. i never wanted one when i was a teen.. coz i went to the kind of schools where girls get hit on.. and being the Arabified Arab gulfified sa3eedi... if i had a sister and you look at her id like beat the living shizzle out of you.

and like the last thing you wanna do is always keeping an eye on your sister and getting beat up by bigger boys.. then id have to like put a pipe in my bag or something..

I remember in 10th grade when I told my parrents about going to the school prom, my mum was like if you had a sister would you let her go.. i was like Hell NO!... she was like then we shouldnt let you go.. i was like no am a guy its ok.. she s like but its not fair she doesnt go.. I was like whatever.. she was like i would let her go.. i said i wouldnt.. she: but I said i would.. me: I dont care what you say she wont go thats it period by force.. LOL..

I remember i had a friend his sister wore hijab and never talked to guys.. he never had to worry about her.. he3 but i never thought about it back then.. well actually i was like she would HAVE TO wear all black... i dunno where do i get all this from.. maybe fitra... a lot of my school friends are totally brain fried in ideology somehow a lot of the egyptians and pakistanis have retained their Islam.. many of the kuwaitis are just out of the galaxy.

I was wondering whats it like.. to live with another woman... then you would have to take care of everyhting in the house and not leave anything broke... and it has to be all tidy all the time ? or maybe she was living a bachelors life??

and you can no longer cook for the sake of food content.. taste too ?? well maybe i wont have to cook anyways.. but its not fair she makes me food like 5/6 times a day.. i dont think she would even have to cook me anything.. oh well...

I was going to write something serious today but things came up... please pray for me.

what makes me endure so much is the state our Ummah is in.. sometimes i think i would not be into the deen if it werent for that... alhamdullelah i was created in such a time.. where am more likely to be into the deen i guess.... I remember once i was realllly sick and like telling myself this is too much id rather die.. then i was like hell no i got stuff to do before i die.....

may Allah make use of me for this Ummah...
astaghfur Allah wa 2atoob 2ilayh