Thursday, April 30, 2009
alhamdullelah things are going awsome for me!
papers are tough and what not but am used to it I guess
aaaand alhamdullelah I feel am getting more muscular but also more fatty or at least more blaoted, I think I should reduce my caloire restriction which I have been doing and go all out, I need to take my protein intake all out haha!
I was planning to grow my hair but am already getting sick of it even though its barely over 1 cm
alhamdullelah wa mashaAllah my back is getting wider, I feel like am waking with two cushions underneath my arms my legs are getting thicker, but I need to work out my neglected calfs that I never had the time to stimulate properly!
I started doing wide grip pull ups which I havent done for ages I use to do 15 ! I did 8
I just got out my closet some jeans that I had stopped wearing coz they were too big for me, well not they are kinda tight lol!
I cant find my meter but I think my arms are a bit abover 16.5 inchs possibily 17 inshaAllah!
on a different note
about a hadeeth I heard
That I REALLY LOVE
Musa (Moses) peace and blessings be upon him asked Allah. Oh Allah teach me a supplication/prayer which by I can call upon you with. Allah says; ya Musa say Laa Ilaha Illa Allah. Musa; all of Your slaves say that (aka he wants something special to himself). Allah; ya Musa if the seven heavens and whats in them and the seven earths were on one side (of a balance) and Laa Illaha Illa Allah was one one side, then it would lean with Laa Illaha Illa Allah.
Friday, April 24, 2009
I think I should try to write up some poems again, my old blog had a lot of em about many stuff, Islam, remembering the after life, love, politics, globalization, identity and what not.
so here are some thoughts.
we keep running from reality
we'll do anything to push off the pain, often provoking our vanity
we plump our ears with objects to veil our hearts from clarity
we constantly shift our moods with screens that alter our mentality
we take long walks, eat our fill, anything to avoid those thoughts, trapped in duality
dont bother me with why am here !.. to my mind it's brutality!
go on and live your life you wont face fatality!
and live your life in full !? in all its totality !?
but know one thing for sure ! with it behold your peace!
you can't run away...
run away reality...
Monday, April 20, 2009
dieting went ok, I upped my weights, last time I benchpressed 95kg for 8 reps, I need to up it to my weight, am 106 still. So I upped the weight but downed the fat. I did 95kg 6 reps a few years ago before my shoulder injury.
Im begining to learn about steroids much more, I think I might be able to do my first cycle before the end of the year, I should expect gains inshaAllah of up to 10kg in 6 weeks.
Of course i ll pray istikhara before I buy anything. insane that this stuff is so readily available in Cairo and they sell it in pharmacies and you can get it without prescription.
subhan Allah looking at pics of myself in 2007 I though I was gettin big, but now I look I was tiny! my tshirts are getting tight! and I still feel I can pack on more muscles, my biceps suck! I need more biceps.
now I have a cold and am resting on saturday I put the AC on 17c with very little clothing. woke my throat clogged and nose blah..
am almost 24 dayyum time is flying subhah Allah, I wonder if you can blog in jannah !
subhan Allah, all I can think of just having those thoughts is death, death and more death which eventually I like you and all of us will face.
been talking to some non-muslims lately about life an what not, subhan Allah at how lost they are dont know what to do, living their lives weekend by weekend, trying to milk this world for everything that its worth to them.
One of my friends (embraced Islam) his mom is a nurse in America, and in the hospital she works are very sick people some of them close to death, she would initially ask them if they would like a religious councelor/priets to come and talk to them, but many would refuse as they "dont believe in God" subhan Allah.... when they are close to death and start moaning their pain they start saying "Oh God, Oh God" and ask Him for help.
I ask Allah to make my final days close to Him, that I die and He is pleased with my actions, that I die thinking well of Allah, saying laa ilaha illa Allah.
And it will be said: "Who can cure him and save him from death?"
And he (the dying person) will conclude that it was (the time) of departing (death);
The drive will be, on that Day, to your Lord (Allâh)!
So he (the disbeliever) neither believed (in this Qur'ân, in the Message of Muhammad SAW) nor prayed!
But on the contrary, he belied (this Qur'ân and the Message of Muhammad SAW) and turned away!
Then he walked in full pride to his family admiring himself!
Woe to you [O man (disbeliever)]! And then (again) woe to you!
Again, woe to you [O man (disbeliever)]! And then (again) woe to you!
Does man think that he will be left Suda [neglected without being punished or rewarded for the obligatory duties enjoined by his Lord (Allâh) on him]?
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I have actually gained weight ! and lost fat and am lifting heavier. Im 107kg ! on the balance so perhaps without the cloths and shoes 106kg
I havent been checking out any blogs appart from UmmBlog. yup aka Mother of Blog.
seems am going off the radar among the previous folks who use to come here.
I still havent started any of the papers am suppose to start, I didnt do cardio today am so tierd!
am doing the maximum weight the cable rows machine has. I was quite surprised maashaAllah wa alhamdullelah that even when I was carb depleted I was lifting heavier!
I havent had any sweets for a while, doesnt seem like am going to stick exactly to it for as much as I wanted to although inshaAllah ill still try to eat clean and healthy.
am sleepy but I still need to eat aaahhhh
Monday, April 13, 2009
Sitting in front of the laptop trying to log on thinking of how beautiful marriage is wishing Allah may grant it to me and thinking that to myself that you even continue the life with your partner in Paradise and it was so clear to me the feeling of its presence like it was right before me, the Jannah Allah has promised to those of us whom are patient and striving for His sake, it was so clear to me … that for a glimpses of thought I was in denial this is impossible …Jannah! ? In no time I was telling myself how could I deny all these signs! I immediately followed that by saying to myself laaa illaha illa Allah (there is no god but Allah) the presence of the afterlife was right there again before myself it literally made me shiver sending a chill down my spine…
We tend to forget our final abode.
Yet its only a few steps away from us or a few breaths or a few minutes.
We are going to face it NO MATTER WHAT no matter when.
Ya Allah grant us the entrance of Jannah and forbid our skins from coming near the Hell Fire,
You are The Most Forgiving, Most Merciful.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
yup spring kicked in and am dieting
although I feel like my muscles are actually fuller and am generally pumped but thats after eating
today I did a highintensity shoulder/trap triceps work out I wasnt taking many rests I even went heaier than last time on traps sporting a 110kg (which I initially thought was 120) on traps 12 reps or was it 8 i forget. I couldnt press as last time but i guess I didnt warm out propely.
I then hopped on the ecliptic cardio machine and did 45 minutes, then some ab work which i almost never do.
I am on a 1.5 gram per pound diet and I initially decided 1gram of carbs for each pound but it seemed like a hell lot given that am carb sensitive and I feel full already at 0.65 I think I might keep it like that am suppose to be doing around 30% of my calories from healthy fats but I dunno how to measure that give that what I eat has some fat already, the fat is essential for hormones and other stuff I suppose.
so im eating 8 meals a day (or I am suppose to) I should be eating two more but I didnt get my sleep right so I am going to skip some protein today unfortunatly I have no whey powder.
my plan was to hit the weights 4 days a week do cardio everyday including after the weights and do 3 times a night 30 minutes cardio.. i think i might do cardio at night everyday. or at least more than 3 if i feel like it
am resting on fridays.
eating like that is waaay time consuming. thats why am doing it in the break I guess inshaAllah am going to start working my butt off seriously with my papers som maybe I can extend my diet beyond the two weeks.. if thats so am going to HAVE TO eat during my classes.. I wonder how my professors will take that.
yes I should also add that my only source of carbs so far is oats,, am not eating any suger or sweets if I loose 4 kg in that week i ll be happy but am expecting at least inshaAllah 2!
am thinking I ll break my diet with a double cheese burger from spectra and a tripple stuffing cheese cake from Benos!
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Finally I should say something. Alhamdullelah semster going well, seems like there will be a slight change in plans summer school and my thesis proposal is going to be delayed a bit.
ive been working out pretty good I have reached new weights on my lifts praise be to Allah!
mostly my shoulders have improved alhamdullelah am getting wide!
a day I was going out with the bros, and bad me didnt do the laundry so I wore one of em tight white Hanes(just covers shoulders) shirt which i havent put on in public since summer 07 I mean talk about people staring :P alhamdullelah wa mashaAllah i think i grew pretty well :P
one of the bros insisted that i was on juice, aka roids aka gym candy that is in common language steroids.. no am not :P
So I went and got some supplements for a 2 week diet inshaAllah since we getting spring break soon! on my way there was this dude a cab driver who's car stopped in the middle of a slope upwards! and this dude was trying to push it. so I was like Alhamdullelah! finally a Chance to use Allah's blessings on me (muscles) for something good so enthusiastically I got behind the car and started pushing it against the slope!
yeah so I think i ll diet inshaAllah for 2 weeks see how that goes got to ask the sheik of Muscles bro Don for some tips, will do that soon inshaAllah.
سبحانك رب العزة عن ما يصفون
و سلام على المرسلين
و الحمد لله رب العالمين